A little person who danced behind Miley Cyrus in a teddy bear suit during the pop tart’s infamous MTV Video Music Awards performance is opening up about how the whole experience made her feel.

Surprise surprise, she feels humiliated: “I will be the first to tell you that standing on that stage, in that costume, was one of the most degrading things I felt like I could ever do,” says Hollis Jane in her blog; the aspiring actress feels she was hired solely for her height in order to add a supposedly comedic effect.

Initially swept up in the excitement of being a backup dancer, she accepted, only to immediately regret it.

Surely she finds some solace in the fact that Cyrus was the person who looked the most ridiculous, right?